Stressed

Well, well, well. Ive been pretty stressed lately...mostly because of work. There is just so much going on - had to fire two part-timers back to back...plus it seems like one of the schools personnel just hate our company! To top all that off, I have to let go a full-timer too! Im already feeling like there just isnt enough time in the day...now, Im going to be stuck until I get another full timer! I felt bad at first, but I dont care anymore because I feel like they showed there true colors today. I needed to get sooo much done today, but he was no help at all. I honestly dont even know what they did all day!! I need to get someone in there that can do the job and do it well. I definitely need some prayer. I am happy that I feel better letting them go. Today really defined it for me. They were off doing things that had nothing to do with anything. Granted they are nice...and they help others...but I dont care about others right now - I care about what we need to get done! You have to be able to say NO and let people do their own jobs. Help yourself first..then others.

Aside from work, my man life is ok. The youngin came back! He took me out and it was awesome! He took me out on Valentines Day - we met up and he took me to the circus. After that we went to get a bite to eat, then hugs were exchanged and drove home. It was my first time having a date on Valentine's Day. He also brought me a rose. It was just awesome! Its exactly how I would want a first date to go. This weekend we hooked up again at his house and talked and chilled. He said I made his weekend. He had made plans for us to go see a play on Sunday..but it didnt pan out because there was death in his family. A play! I love plays!
He drives a nice car, lives in an apt with his sis and her kids. So far, there is nothing wrong with this guy yet. I guess we just gotta wait and see. He has two jobs - two part time gigs. He is young, so I cant blame him for not being ahead just yet. He is into marketing I think - he works with a promotion company. He is tall and slim and cute/handsome.
Well, time will tell how long this one will last lol. You already KNOW that my relationships dont last long. He is so young. In the meantime, I will enjoy where we are right now.

You know I still have dreams about Arnie! Weird huh. I saw him today - I treated him like he was jo blow off the street. Not rude, but just in a straight business minded sense. Im sure he has something to say, but I dont care. Guess Im still hurt by that whole 'i cant be your friend' thing.
Am I over him? Not fully - probably only 25% still there.

As for church, I signed up for flag football and I began going to bible study. I am thankful for that. It gives me stability. Something/someone I can call on....to help me understand whats going on. I may not necessarily understand things, but at least I can be motivated to get through and hold on...u know?

My Destiny

Man, do I love that church! I am definitely going to be getting more involved in whats going on. They have a powder puff team that i want to join - that way I can stay in shape without having to go to the gym. I am excited about that! I am even trying to recruit some folks from work! ANyway, I thought I was going to have a rough day at work - for one, I was sick - and on my period...but then I got two emails back to back that were about the same thing, and I had to go talk to my supervisors about what was going wrong. I have a plan of action for now, but Im definitely going to need to step up my game - delegate, and make sure things are going well from here on out. When Iwent to talk to the staff, it was not as bad as I expected. I was happy with the outcome. Im very happy actually - cant wait to go back and reveal the issues and how we plan on solving some of them. Aside from that, my personal life really has not changed much. I am threw with Jamal, but he is still trying. I have no other prospects. The young guy - I dont really talk to him much except when I have to. Um, some good news for me is that my old crush seems to be flatlining a little when it comes to his relationship. I got to see some pictures of the couple and he doesnt look as happy as he use to. I still dont think she is as pretty as me tho. Im kind of surprised that I am still interested despite all that has gone down, but it is what it is right. As of now, I would still get with him...but it would take a minute. I dont think thatll eer happen though. I am really believing that I have not met whoever it is I am suppose to end up with. It sucks, but the only person that I think I could potentially have a future with is that old crush - Arnie. However, he is taken....and he has already broken my heart. Remember what I said before - I dont do go backs. never have yet....If he is my destiny, God will find a way to allow us to regain the friendship we had started last summer. Ive always thought there was somthing special about him - still do. Still think his girl is lucky. Sure there are things that I dont like about him - but its stuff I think I can deal with. Only God knows. I wish I had a clue...but what I do know for sure is that God loves me. He loves me soo much. He wants me to continue to do good in his name. I will be blessed! He has a man in store for me that is great! I am going to be soo happy!! I cant wait for the day!! Thats the hope that I hold on to. I believe that. I know Im getting kind of old, but hey- Im sure he will be worth the wait! If its destine for me and Arnie to be together, then I'll just wait...patiently lol.