Waiting on His Will

Well, I decided to write because it seems like I always write when something is going wrong. Although there is nothing wrong with that, I still should write when things are well. As for my work life...we have gone into a little slump. We are at a 4/5 million dollar deficit so there are many many cutbacks. Thankfully I am not one of them! The economy is not doing well, but God can override all of that, so I dont have worries. Nonetheless, I am getting bored with my job and I am ready for something new. I have been looking, but I need Word on my computer to really put out my resume.
As for my love life, nothing. I am definitely not mad at that though. I realize that I am pushing and wanting too much. I need to relax and let God. I have said it soo many times, but never really done it. I dont want to mess up potential in Nehe...so I read different segments in the Bible and read online about the will of God, patience, and such when it comes to finding the right one. I bookmarked it for future reference. I had to then go apologize to Nehe for a comment I made: "If I want you, as long as there is hope I will keep trying to get you". If it was not that it was really close to that. So anyway, I DO have hope in maybe God giving him (Nehe) to me as a potential spouse. All I can do now if further our relationship as friends and see what it ends up as. I will keep praying about it. I know He has a special man for me. After all I have been through..I KNOW He has someone very special for me. No doubt. So when I find someone that has Godly characteristics, I try to cling to them. Tristan is a good example. He was trying or is trying to be Christlike, and I am happy for him...but his defaults were not good for me at that time. I could see myself sinning with him. It was not right. With Nehe...things are different. He kind of scares me. I see him as a true man. I respect him. I listen...although he is NOT perfect. I am honest with him. He is nice to me. He is a Jesus freak :) I love that.
I see how he could possibly bring out the best in me...but I dont see how I could bring out the best in him. For once in my life...He is doing better then me...or his path has been better then mine. I know that God has given us all different paths, and none is better then the other. Kind of like our gifts...none is better...they are just different. I have to remember that. He is not better then me. We are equally loved by God.
Well God, I would love to have him as a potential husband, BUT I know you have the best in mind for me. So if its not him, its ALL good! I await your truth to unfold and continue to bless me. Thank you for what you have done for me , what you are doing for me and what you will do for me. Help me to be a blessing to others. I love you :)