My Husbands at Church

Well, its Sunday. I went to service at 8 instead of 10. It was nice.
Things with Jamal are going downhill fast. I don't like him at all anymore. I want to be acquatainces, but I can see that he is still into me. The young guy at work stood me up, so Im done with that. He said he was going to call me over the weekend to do something and never did. I am too mature to play those high school games.
As for Arnie, things have not really been repaired per se, but I still do think about him at times. I dont think Im going back in that direction or anything He has already shown me the immaturity that I am trying to get away from.
I think I need to service more often. I just finished watching Fabric of a Man...and it opened my eyes. I realize or recall that if I want to find a Godly man, I need to go to where he would be- the church.This wednesday is bible study, and I intend on attending. I remember a while ago when I talked to a psychic about my husband. He said I would meet him in a place where there are a lot of people...listening and learning something. He said something about singing and or dancing too. I realized today that it must be the church. Thats the only place where you would find both dancing and listening/learning. I met one guy online, but after checking out his pics, I am not interested. He is attractive, but not my type.
I want a tall, dark skinned, handsome, athletic brother. I want him to be educated. I want him to have ambition and aspire to be great. I want him to love me for me. I want him to want to do things for me and be there for me. I want him to be the person I confide in when things get rough.
I feel like everyone I meet, I get tired of quickly. No one can keep my interest. I want to say that I am picky...but its more like, Im looking for the ONE. I am exctied about the church that I now attend. There are a lot of good looking brothers in there. Im not perfect, butI want a guy who is currently working on his spirituality so we can talk and push/pull each other to where we know we need to be. I am excited to me that guy. I want to start as friends first because anything else is a recipe for disaster. I want to really believe that he is in the church. THAT church. I have been wanting to belong more. Be more engrossed in what they do...but I havent taken that first step of membership. I need to take that leap. Then there is the leap of joining a small group - perhaps specifically a single small group. One with a very handsome gentlemen who is 5'10 inches tall, brown skinned, very well groomed, working on his spirituality and involved in law. Where are you? lol
My beautiful knight in shining armor. I cannot wait to love him!
I need to stop cursing.
I go to work with the thought that God is my supervisor. I think things get done better when you submit to the HIGHest power. I want to continue with that mind frame...keep doing his work. Pray 4 me.