SCA

Happy New Year! It is 2008 . . .and I truley believe this is my year to shine. The numbers are in my favor. As for the man in my life...things are going well. He definitely keeps me busy. He has sickle cell and is going through some issues right now. Honestly, I dont see us being long term, but for now its all good. I think he is here for 2 reasons: 1. to keep me busy and 2. for his own health. Ive been looking out for him while he goes through this health issue. I like him, but I dont like him enough to make him my man. I wish I did. Maybe my feelings will change later on, but for right now, I its definitely not long term. Why? I really dont have a reason. He is tall, he is cute, his is intelligent, has ambition...is spiritual...he has everything I need and want, but he is just not for me. I am not mad at that, but I am definitely hopeful looking into the future. I feel like he is a time saver until the right man does come along.
As for the right man....I havent met anyone recently. This guy at work is flirting with me pretty hard, but 1. i work with him and 2. he is 5 years younger then me! wow! lol
As for my old crush...yup, its still there unfortunately, but its not deep - 30%
I wish him the best despite our journey.

I cant help but feel a disconnect. I was meshing so well with the people at work...but I feel like they keep me out- and I understand and know why. I dont blame them. Its in my best interest to keep from them anyway. We are all at different levels. Well, it is what it is! I will let you know how things progress! Until next time :) Continue to pray for me.