Closure

Since I wrote Arnie back, I have felt so much better about the whole situation. Its like a weight lifted from my shoulder. I think it because I have the upper hand. He should write back about not being able to committ to a friendship. Once he says that, then I could go ahead and tell him that i KNEW he was going to say that and that I agree with him. "We cant be friends...maybe in the future"...just like he told me. Its been a while and he has not responded. I am going to assume that he is thinking. If thats the case, I am happy. Why? because that is what I wanted. I wanted to really think about what it was like before...how I was and how he was (or rather- wasnt). He was not a friend to me anyway, so I DONT LOSE! lol Awesome! In the beginning he was cool - for a strong month - then he began the turn towards miscommunication and deceit.
Anyway, enough time wasted...next...
Tristan - forget that. I am not into the hunt right now. I need to focus on me. I still think he is all that and I would still like to get a date, but Im not trying hard at all right now.
Khalil - me and him seem to be over. We dont text or talk on the phone anymore. I dont think he trusts me. Its all for the better anyway. I didnt see us doing the long hall anyway.
Kevin - yea, i slipped with him, but I need to get back on the right path. He's not mine. He has already committed to loving someone else.
Tirel - NEW! I know him from a couple years back when I went to Gainesville for the first time, but he has had a long time girlfriend for some years now. He has recently started hitting me up. He asked a friend of mine for my # and looked me up on facebook. The way he's talking you would think he had no girl... another Kevin!
First Arnie has a girl already, then Kevin has a girl already, now Tirel has a girl! Why do I keep getting the guys who have already committed to other females?! No one wants to committ to me? Leave her for me then! I know that wont happen!
I guess that is my plight right now...another route to rejection. Im cutting Arnie off...need to do the same with Kevin...and keep T at a distance. Keep me in your prayers!