Tristan

Wow...it has been a while since I have written. Anyway, a few new changes - mostly in men (as usual). Aunri is in town, so I got to chill with him here at my crib. I cooked and we watched the game. It was a good time. Lets get into it...the young one - name "Khalil" - we are doing ok, but I see that he is not the one for me. His path is different. It's not what I am looking for. I know I need someone with an education...there is a difference in the way they speak and in the way they look at the world - at least, I believe that. We still chill - not as much though. He always seems to have something to do. It upset me at first, but it doesnt matter because in the end, he's not the one. It does not bother me anymore. Now, there is Kevin. He is married. Recently married, and flirting with me big time. I have to say that I am not innocent. I flirt back. In fact, at a club, we did kiss...or rather, I kissed him. At church today Pastor spoke directly about that and we had a talk. I basically told him that I would like to continue to be cool with him and that I would not make any passes at him. I did warn him that in situations where I have been drinking, I would be more open to doing something I was not suppose to do, so he would have (or rather we would...) to stay away from each other in those settings. He definitely is my type and I think we would be dating if it werent for his situation, but we will see where this goes. Apparently he is not really happy that he is married, but thats not my issue. Who else? Um, Tristan. He is my flag football coach. He is 6'1'', i think 190 lbs, graduated from college and is trying to play pro football. I believe he injured himself...so Im not sure where he is with those goals now. Anyway, he is sweet, talkative, and has this rich baritone voice. His mom and brother are out on the field with us all the time so that makes it awkward for me to try to hit on him. I wonder if he knows I have a crush on him. I think its obvious. He use to date one of the girls on my team...she is cute...just a bit annoying. I think I look better then her...and our personalities are very different. She is more prissy...I am more earthy. She is basically a cookie cutter AKA.
I am just going to lay back...throw hints when I can, and continue to do me. Maybe at the end of the season I will ask him to chill with me and my friends...a group thing. He is a family man, a church man - i really like that in him. I can see him being someone that would help me in my journey. I havent had someone like that in a while. I could see us working together - going to church together...all that. My worries? That a pleuthora of women already have their sites on him. He has almost a thousand friends on facebook! Mostly girls! WOW! With him, I am definitely scared of rejection. I am so use to thinking that I am too good for the guys I meet...this time its exactly the opposite. I think he is too good for me. He has a qote on Myspace that says "far from perfect, but more then enough". WOW. MM. He has such a sexy voice and swagger. His style is PERFECT. He can thug it up...go athletic...then GQ it. Did I mention his voice? mm. This man is so ridiculously sexy! He has some NICE lips too. I love his teeth. They arent perfect, but they are perfect. He works out...loves sports....I think he would make an awesome husband and excellent father. Pray for me with that one. I dont know if I can pull it off. I can say, that Tristan...is better than Rae. Yes. He is.
I'll let you know how that goes.
Keep me in...or rather, keep US in your prayers.