Waiting...

Man, this is harder then I thought. I still have feelings for him. I refuse however, to tarnish or try to come in between what he has with her. I wish him the best, but I still think the best is here with me. I can see a future with us. But, I can see a future with her. I do love him. Not in love - just love. God knows best. He knows what I bring to the table. He knows who is the perfect match for me and my qualities. I know this. As a human, my views are altered by sin and sometimes it is difficult to see the end - or understand the greatness that is to come. I love myself. I feel as though there is so much love in me to give...so much goodness. A man would only be so lucky to be with me. I would be so greatful for him and what he does for me...I can't even explain it. I was so close. I am so close. I have been on a love journey of rejection after rejection...each time, I get closer to him. I thought I was done. Maybe I am. Maybe I just need to wait until he is done. Maybe it really does get better. If it does, I might as well just die and go to heaven because I can't fathom it. God is soo good. I know he will bless me beyond my wildest dreams. I just have to believe, hold faith, and do his will. I will wait...I will be patient...I will stay strong.