Wings

Whew! What a day! Someone is really mad at me!! What happened: I was leaving work and was in my car backing out of the parking lot when a co-worker stops me. He walks over to my car and hands me a to-go plate and a bag and asks if Im going home - i said yes. As I take it, I ask 'what is this'. He says, its Ray's. I asked him what I was suppose to do with it. He said, give it to him. At this point, I was upset. Ray is not a friend of mine, therefore I do not do him favors. I told my co-worker it was going to end up on the floor in front of his apt. He laughed it off, but I was serious. As I drove out of the complex, I saw Ray's car...so I put his bag and food on the floor by his car. Now, at the time, I thought he was on his way to his car. I didnt think it would be there longer then 5 minutes. I later realized that he would not get to it until 2 hours later. At that point, I felt bad. I knew he would be upset, but I thought to myself, oh well. Its just wings.

I then get a text from Ray. First of all, his # is NOT in my phone. I had deleted it maybe a month or so ago. So I asked if it as him first. He said 'of course, who else would it be'. I said 'this # is not in my phone, so it could be n e 1'. He said 'wow, u deleted my # from your phone. thats cool. did u really leave my food on the floor by my car'. I said yes. he asked why i would leave his food outside on the floor. I said, i thought u were on your way out. He said that was bullsh and that I was being hateful and that this was a bunch of foolishness and that he doesnt know what going on with me, but that he hopes I figure myself out and that being the type of person he is that he would pray for me and that he forgave me. He said he was not going to stoop to my level.

That pissed me off. I told him that it was a misunderstandin - not me being hateful. He said that was bullsh. That I knew what I was doing. i told him that I deleted his number because he was treating my like straight crap. I said he would have done the same thing if he was kept tryin to be someones friend, only to get the door slammed in your face each time. I deleted the # cuz I was done tryin to force friendship on someone who treated me like 2nd class. He said he didnt understand and that he was caught off guard. He didnt know what I was talking about. I told him he caught me off guard when he implied that I needed Jesus because of some wings. He said it wasnt the food, but the principle behind it. He said I knew what I was doing. I told him that he knows where I live if he wants to get more off his chest. Obviously he is extremely upset. He said 'Im done. Your the one that deleted my number. My food is infested with ants. thanks!'

So whats the deal? I understand that he is upset. He has the right to be. But I think he was brutal. He went spiritual on me to say that i need Jesus??? Wow. That is insulting. How close is he to his Bible, cuz last I saw, he was having sex outside of marriage and missing all kinds of services. When was the last time he looked at the book?? Now only that, but lets talk about the multiple - YES MULTIPLE times he has hurt me: I asked him to go see a movie - he said he was too busy. I asked him when were we going to talk - he said i dunno (never). I asked him to take me to the airport - nope. When my birthday came - did he bother to say happy birthday to me? personally? - no. When his birthday came and I had planned something for him - did he bother to say retrieve it...or even say thanks - no. When I sent him an encourage email that came straight from my heart - did he acknowledge it - no. Did he bother to tell me that he was about to embark on a serious relationship? No - Since I had slept with him less then a month before he made it official...i would have liked to not be a part of the deception and disrespect that he was showing his soon to be girlfriend. Yet and still, I helped him with his resume - stayin 2 hours after work hours to revamp it - did he mention that he got it? NO.
But I am in the wrong ...right? I take friendship seriously. When I first met him, I thought he would have made a great friend - like Sam...and Kareem. Long lasting. But instead, when I ask him why he's been acting funny...he proceeds to tell me 'i told u i just got out of a long relationship'...'i'm not looking for a relationship right now'. I asked this because I noticed we were going from friendly to distant in a matter of days. I didnt ask him because I wanted to be in a relationship with him! Why would you assume that? I dont even know you that well to make that kind of a jump! Not only that, but since he did say that - how are you now in a relationship? I consider that a lie. Less then 3 months from telling me that you were not looking for a relationship - NOW UR IN ONE. Can I trust you? Are you so into yourself that you don't see others? That is what it seems.
Well, I can say I tried. I tried to be a friend. I wasnt looking for a boyfriend in him. I just thought he would make a long lasting friend. I hate the fact that he is so completely unaware of everything around me. He does not care. I did that mean thing, on accident. If he was a friend...it would have never happened that way. I would have taken the food home and got it to him later....cuz thats what friends do. To show you just how much he doesnt care....he didnt care to hear me out. He's done. But he's a little to late for that - cuz I had been done....He's just now feeling the effects...