Arnie

I just wanted to write and say that I do miss Arnie. Despite everything, I still wish there was something I could do to get him to be mine. I met a guy in the club today. He looked innocent. He was tall, attractive...went to my church even!! He looked like Arnie. I saw Arnie today, and I didnt act differently. It is hard to treat him like any other when I feel like he shoiuld be treated so much better then that. He is like a King and I want to be his queen. The youngin is not him...these new guys that I meet...they are not him. I can only pray. If it is meant to be it will be regardless of everything we have been thorugh. If not, thats ok too...but I do hope that whoever I do end up with is half as awesome as Arnie.

Arnie,

Its hard getting over you. I am working on it. I still think you are special. I still believe you have so much potential. I think that your girlfriend is sooo lucky...and I hope I can be so lucky one day. Good luck. I love you.