Libra

Well, just wanted to share the latest in my journey. As for the young one...I spent some time with him this week and I am still feeling the same. He is different. I like him. Yet, I still want to kepe him at a distance. I love the compliments he gives...but at the same time, he isn't everywhere. He does not call me often at all. I wondered about that, but now...I like it. It gives us a sense of mystery. We still text. In one sense, I can't wait to see what's next with him...but at the same time, Im not eager because I fear that he is not the ONE and that Im wasting my time. I'm just gong to continue to take it slow and see where we go.

As for the modeling... I have a photo shoot set up for this coming Thursday. I plan on taking the day off to make sure I am ver prepared. I have a comp day anyway, so it works out perfectly. I have picked out my outfits...I was worried about the looks because I wanted to go with what everyone else was doing. I checked out Ethnicity's website and saw a LOT of bathing suits and skin. Idont want to go that route...so I have made the decision to go the other way. Im a little worried I may not get the job-but then I realized that I am NOT trying to book videos. I am not a video vixen. I want print...cataloge..commercials...fashion shows. Those are the gigs that really pay. SOOOOOO.. My three outfits are 1.commercial - a VS sun-dress that is teal/blue. 2. High Fashion - the beige tight fitting dress from Zara. and 3. Glamour - VS lingerie. Matching thong and bra lace set. Risque! I have to have a shot in there for body and I notice that I dont look good in bathing suits...but I look fab in lingerie - and I feel more comfortable. The sun dress fits great and looks great on me. I just need some gold hoops and bangles to go along with them. As for the High fashion - thats the one I am the most nervous about. I want it to look as close coutour as possible. I think I may have to set it up a little more. Everytime I wear it though, people say I look lik a model. With the right makeup and background, I could look AWESOME! We will see.

Last but -hm-i dont want to be cliche and least, but its not headliner stuff either - I saw Arnie yesterday. I didnt speak, however I was not rude. I waved goodbye to him at one point. I know he misses his mrs. The young one knows about him...he seems a lil nervous about it. He mentions him a lot in our conversations...as if I still have something for him...or Im going to stop talking to him to go be with Arnie. Arnie has a girlfriend. Arnie and I are not even friends. I dont want to be with Arnie. I like the youngn lol. Im really feeling him. The youngn and I got kinda close in front of Arnie. I wonder if Arnie noticed. The youngn seemed to feel that Arnie was jealous...to the point where they wont be able to be functional at their basketball game tomorrow. lol. I doubt its all that. I dont think Arnie even thinks about me anymore. He probably cant stand me. lol

Anyway - Im feelin my Libra Man. I will be cheering him on silently at the game tomorrow. ;)