He's Married

What a weekend!! It was awesome! I went to Taboo 2 and had fun there. Ended up meeting a guy...who happens to be a Nupe. He was very attractive, tall, athletic. As we were dancing I noticed a ring on his finger. He asked me for my # and we danced a seductive dance...I thought nothing of it. Maybe it was a promise ring or maybe they are seperated. Come to find out...he goes to my church too -he is an usher. We texted back and forth...he asked y I was single. He said I was cute and sassy...and that I could be trouble lol. Duh! He looks like Arnie. That makes it harder. I know I need to stay away from him. For real.

As for the youngin...he went away this weekend to Savannah...I hear there is some St. Patricks day thing down there. I havent heard from him. He texted and asked if I would be at all his games. I said "if u want me to"...but now I doubt it will happen. Itll draw too many questions.

As for Arnie...I still think about him. His girl is gone again. Probably for 2 weeks or so. He looks happy in his pics with her. I am happy for him...but at the same time believing that I could make him jus as happy...maybe happier. I have love for him. I definitely understand why we need to not be close friends. It would be so much harder for me. I am thankful in retrospect.

As for Tristan...Gosh he is cute!! Im going to try to work that and see where it goes. He is 25, 6 ft 1, degree in marketing, very athletic, sweet, family loving and God fearing!! I would love to get to know him...just gotta inch my way into that. I may have a plan....we will see.

Anyone else? Yes! "W"...I think he likes me...but I dnt want to go there. I like him as a friend. He is attractive, athletic and very smart .., but just not for me.

I feel like I have grown. Or at least...I am growing. The fact that I will stay away from the married man. The fact that I will not go over to "W" place for a movie nite. He told me if I came by he would flirt with me...no no no. Um...the fact that I understand Arnie's decision. Its still hard tho. I cant believe I still have feelings for this guy!! What happened to it being 20% there lol. Its more like hidden for the time being...or at least til I find someone that could make me feel the way I felt with him. It was his personality. I only knew him for a little bit, but he had so many of the qualities that I want in a man. ALL:
tall
black
athletic
smart
educated
ambitious
God fearing
working on spirituality
sexy
style
sweetheart
caring
attentive
affectionate
detail oriented
opinionated
devoted
honest

Let me write him...